Why I Haven't Been Writing

     There comes a time in everyone's life where everything they love takes sort of a backseat to everything that NEEDS to be done. I haven't put my words down on paper (or in a computer) for almost 6 months. My last post was in July. Or well, the last post I really put thought into was in July. 

     Which leads me into the whole reason why I haven't written in 6 months. An absolute, completely unexpected change occurred the first week of July. A change that now that I've had time to mull over has been in the works since I graduated LAST year. 

     On July 3rd, I had an interview at my current place of employment on a random whim. (If y'all want the full story, maybe I'll post it later). On July 5th, I was, in the nicest way to put it, no longer employed at the newspaper that I gave almost two years of blood, sweat and tears too. Thankfully, that "random whim" of an interview turned into a full-time job. 

     So here I am almost 6 months later, still sort of finding my footing as I tackle a job (or jobs) I have never done before nor did I go to school for it....

     But I am absolutely in love with it. 

     At my old job, I was miserable. I had panic attacks every day driving to work (which was 35 minutes there and back). I wasn't treated like an equal. I wasn't being used to my full potential or I was only being used when it was convenient for them.

     I had interviews in Austin in April but neither jobs seemed like they were for me. Then this kind of last minute opportunity came my way and it felt absolutely perfect. I didn't feel stressed or scared. I felt at home. So I said goodbye to a job that had been causing me nothing but tears and anxiety and said hello to a new job that has literally kept me on my toes since my first day. 

     With that being said, I feel like I haven't had an opportunity to take a weekend to just write because 1. my mind was always on this new job and how could I better be a great new employee; 2. I had to relearn a brand new company with a staff greater than three and how they worked; and 3. I hadn't been feeling motivated this year in general. 

     And I think #3 was my biggest problem... I was motivated with my YouTube channel and wanting to create content, but with writing.. I was having a hard time putting what I felt into words. But hopefully, with me finally (finally) finding my footing at this new place, loving it and with the holiday season FINALLY upon us, I can finally get back to this little piece of my heart. 

​     Until next time ;)