My plan for this post was a cute, fun layout talking about my faith. I had the perfect title to!
Now that I have actually sat down and have had time to process all these thoughts, I've realized that I can't physically put into words how much my faith means to me. So this post will be a little random and kind of everywhere, but I feel the need to get this down on something
I'm not going to lie. I have struggled with my faith, and doing the morally right thing from time to time. Recently, I have struggled more than I have had in a while. Several things kept hitting me and my life just one after another, and it wouldn't quit. And I hate to admit that it took me several days to realize that I had to stop fighting all the crap that was being thrown at me and just hand it to God. I am a very stubborn girl, ask anyone who knows me well enough. I like to do things my way, and on my own. So knowing that I physically couldn't fix my problems and I had to stop beating myself up spiritually and emotionally, was tough.
And I am still stumbling as of right now. Sometimes I feel like I take a step forward only to get pushed five steps back. I try and try, and I feel like nothing goes my way, so for me to step back and say "Okay God. My pain, my worries. They're yours. Take them." is extremely difficult. But then I have to realize that they were never mine to begin with. I am a child of God. All those pains, thoughts, worries, come from the devil and he is trying to push me away, but he won't win.
I will not fall. My barriers will not break. I will not be tempted by sin.
Because I am Yours. You raise me up. You strengthen my walls. You are standing in armor beside me.
These days I struggle to remain the person that I have become because of God. I am better. And I will continue to be better because I know for a fact that God did not bring me this far just to abandon me!
This is usually the time when I would say leave a comment about yada yada yada. But today I am gonna do something different.
I don't want y'all to leave a comment if you're Christian or not. What I want to do is offer y'all, my lovely readers, something. I want to offer a friend, a confidant. If you are Christian, great! Get in touch with me if you want to. If you're not, that's fine too! But I know when I wasn't a Christian, and I struggled, I failed horribly. I had bad thoughts and a bad attitude. So what I am offering you. If you ever feel like you're struggling with something, anything, please, please, get in contact with me. Leave a comment here with your email address, or go to my Contact page and shoot me an email.
We have created a little community (more like a village) on here, and I don't want anyone to ever feel like they have to go through something alone.
"If it scares you, it might be a good thing..."